Lately, many people had asked me about when we're gonna have kids. I honestly don't know how to answer this question because I don't think I'll ever be able to give unconditional love that is of a mother's.
My parents always said to me when I yell back at them, "you'll never know how it feels when you become a parent yourself". Maybe because I'm afraid of karma because I had been such a disobedient child with the countless times that I've sniped back at my parents which in turn, caused made them cry. I can honestly say that it sucks when I see or know that my parents cry for me, especially it was due to something stupid and selfish that I have said to them.
As my sisters grow older, I became closer to my parents and became their confidante. I got a glimpse of how being parents feels like. It truly feels like a big slap in the face whenever I think back of those times when I had hurt my parents. Those shoes are definitely too big for me to fill.
All I can say is that, I am inept at giving unconditional love like my mom's. My mom takes it all in and because of that, her health suffered. I have honestly never thought about having kids myself mainly because I felt greatly indebted to my parents and I just want to focus in my lifetime to repay their love and kindness.
